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This is a part of my life that I'd wish to share..

It's been a while since my sister and I last exchanged words, a very long time since she looked at me straight in the eyes or simply just call me "kuya". She's been cold with me ever since I can remembers he'd just pass by me without a greeting.. Without a glance.. She kept her self closed.. and now there's an immeasurable gap that separates us. Even though we'd see each other every day.. Now I could honestly say that i don't know her anymore. How she's doing or what she'd been up to.. she always went with a smile when she's with her friends. But I can't remember a time when she smiled or laughed with me. It's ironic when her friends call me kuya.. While my sister is indifferent with my very existence.. It might be because of what happened in the past.. maybe it' s an anger that never died.. we've always fought then.. and maybe we've just became so fed up with each other that we both decided to just make a wall between ourselves to spare us the trouble of always arguing.. in the end it grew into something much thicker than stone.. It became just too hard.. just too cold.. I'll see her every now and then.. When she comes by to eat for dinner as a family.. we never had a normal conversation it was always misdirected.. I’d end up talking with my brother or mom instead.. I have no grudge against my sister nor any hatred stored in my heart.. I've already forgave her in everything.. It pains me to see her just pass me by.. Like I'm nothing even less than a ghost.. It's been a long time that she learned to ignore me... to exist without a brother.. she'll just take anything she wanted.. with not a word.. we never stayed in one room for more than 15 mins or it was even less.. It's been so long that I've forgotten what's the cause of all of this nor how long did it start.. I just wish she'd call me again.. even if it's just by my name I’d be happy.. it just pains me to see us like this I know it was somehow my fault and I'm sorry with all my heart.. I just can't Live like this.. I'm sorry.. so sorry...I've tried my best to tell her that I'm sorry.. I know she knows It too.. There's nothing else that I can do but just sit still and pray untill the time I could hear her say kuya once again..

as he held her tightly in his arms, softly whispers to her ear

the words that she’s been hoping to hear

the phrase that she had been longing for

would soon be finally heard

Everything was ever so real in her eyes.

she felt the feeling that she has been yearning for so long.

happy with every little ounce of joy in her heart

she was content in every single way she could wish for..

hoping if it could only last forever.. wishing that everything was true..

then at that moment realizing that it was just but a dream

crying out in despair trying to wake up as soon as she could..

to her horror opening her eyes again and again to

the beginning of that very same dream.

with every reenactment something more than

just pain kept piercing her heart..

she knew that this is what she wanted with all her heart

wishing it to be anything else but an illusion

she wanted to have the harsh reality rather

than living a dream..

as she awakened, tears filled her eyes,

she was back once again in her room..

she knew that nothing happened

and everything was just but a dream..

but why was the pain ever so real ..

There hasn't been much of a memory when I was with you
All I can recall is how you'd strike me every time I'd take a glance at you
You've always been catching all those eyes everywhere you'd pass by
Always been fun to hang around and somewhat silly at times
you've always managed to draw a smile on this lips of mine.
I know that you're the one that I've been dreaming of..
but then we had to part ways, feeling that if it just took a little while longer
I might have had a memory of laughing closely by your side
There wasn't much of a goodbye nor a simple farewell..
maybe I've fallen for you by then..
but there was nothing much after all..
Just a faint memory..

I've been falling for you
with the way you laugh
the way you speak
the way you smile.

your all to cute laughing at
how you trip over yourself
every now and then
and how you'd cry every
single time.

i wish i could hold you
tight and never let go
I couldn't resist that
heart breaking charm
hoping that i could stay
right here beside you
and no where else.

I felt how it is to be
by your side,
I have known what it is to
hold you even if
it was for a little while
and I was happy
never trading this moments
for anything in the world.

I've learned to love you
even though you weren't real..

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ders a special
level of comfort
btwn 2 matching
souls. An
unbreakable
bond of constant
suport &
closeness..

its wen a warm
embrace fils so
ryt..
or wen
2 hands fit so
snugly..
its a feeling dats
hard to define
but easy to
recognize..

and when you
find that comfort, you
just know,

you'll never let
go..


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'uv alwys knwn
wat hurts., still,u
hvnt learned to
stay away frm
such.. because as
painful as it is,if
dat's the only
way to feel deyr
prsence,u alwys
give
in., u stil check
on dem evry
now & den jus to
see wats bin
hapening since
dey left., dat evn
If some times u
say,'i just wna see
him/her happy,'
dip in ur
heart,ders dis
flicker of
hope.,so den,it's
true,dat the mor
u think u are
healing, the diper
the wound is
searing.,'


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Sumtyms 0l we
nid in lyf is t0 tel
wtever it is dt
we hve inside.

we zj nid to let it
0ut den let it go

wtever d
c0nsequences-
we jz hve to b
brave enuf t0
stand up wd
our filings.
n0 0ne sed lyf is
easy but we
shud nt mke it a
lot harder.
besyds, lyf is t0o
sh0rt..

so di wt ur
heart tels u. st0p
thinking,stop
w0rying.

jz kip ds in mind:
u myt nt hve a
2nd chance-so
spil it 0ut den
embrace the
result...


====================


wE R
afraid
2 f0l
nluv..
4 we r
afraid
2gt hurt..
bUt

wn
we
fnaly
FALL,
d0 u knw watz d
1st
thng wr afraid
of?

its L0sing THE
ONE
we f0l nluv wd...
Ryt?


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To someone:

"should i smile
because we're
friends?

or

should i cry
because that's
all we'll ever be?"


======================

1day,ul luk at a
persn & c m0r
thn u dd b4..

lyk a swtch dt
flickd frm
nower,
d prson hu ws jst
a frnd.

is sudnly d prsn..

u jst cnt liv
wdout..

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FRieNdship
reQireS rEaL
eFfoRt..
EveN WheN,
EverY0ne iS
busy wiTh theiR
oWn liVes..
A SimpLe
mesSagE
reMinds eaCH
othEr thAt, YOU
aRe Not
f0rgoTteN!

======================

It's been a while since I've last heard your voice and quite a time when we've last conversed. I've grown tired of just saying Hello, weary of glancing at your heart stomping smiles from afar. As each day passes I fall much deeper than before, slipping a bit more with each step I take getting closer to you. Now it's never been so easy to say that "I love you". It takes only three simple words to let you know that you mean everything In this world for this person. but why the silence? why the silly jokes? and the senseless talks? It's all because I love you all too much more than just any words that can be said. It's hard to sleep when your in my thoughts, there were countless nights when tears had fallen of this face. but with each new day I try my best to put up another smile. there's not a need to say a word nor I desire to let you know what this heart feels.. coz Loving you Is more than what I think or how I feel. It's all about what would make you smile.

Bro, how you doing? haven't heard from you from quite a while... How's school? How's the family? and How are the Barkads? How's your heart? hope your doing well. Hey if your in a slump just hold up that optimistic grin yours, the one that you've always been sporting hehehe. you've always been seemingly happy,you know stupidly happy. even though things are falling apart around you it just seems like it doesn't even make you flinch. that made me think, what are you made of anyway!? hahaha Wish that i could hear from you really soon. tell me how you've been doing. remember those crazy stuff we did way back then? did you already surpass them? and tell me about your freaking love life of yours! have you met that special someone already? uyyyy.. hahaha just kidding.. Wish i could see ya again. relive those undying times, catch up with you and cry our hearts out. hahaha Till then good friend keep well and stay safe. God bless.

-chow

I admit of having to fall for you with that smile, that laughter. thinking that your all too beautiful. All too love worthy. spending late nights awake with you in my mind is just the worst. I didn't want this neither would i want to loose you. A lot of times I wished this "feeling" would simply go away. but each sight of you brings it all back. I wanted to know you more, hear more of your voice, spend more time with you or even just be near you. I long  to hear what you think. I know. everything sounds crazy as it is. but to top it all off.. i can't say anything to you about this. nor show you how i really feel. cause I know that now isn't just the right time. leaving me only to rust until this so called to be "infatuation" fades... but as for now I'll try my best not to break apart. I know you've somehow noticed my glances. I just hope It stays as it is. Wishing that your sweet hellos might never change. tears fall off this face each night as i lay alone on my bed... with no reason at all..  then again it might be because of you...

 

I may Love you... but just not this moment.. not just right now....