This is a part of my life that I'd wish to share..

It's been a while since my sister and I last exchanged words, a very long time since she looked at me straight in the eyes or simply just call me "kuya". She's been cold with me ever since I can remembers he'd just pass by me without a greeting.. Without a glance.. She kept her self closed.. and now there's an immeasurable gap that separates us. Even though we'd see each other every day.. Now I could honestly say that i don't know her anymore. How she's doing or what she'd been up to.. she always went with a smile when she's with her friends. But I can't remember a time when she smiled or laughed with me. It's ironic when her friends call me kuya.. While my sister is indifferent with my very existence.. It might be because of what happened in the past.. maybe it' s an anger that never died.. we've always fought then.. and maybe we've just became so fed up with each other that we both decided to just make a wall between ourselves to spare us the trouble of always arguing.. in the end it grew into something much thicker than stone.. It became just too hard.. just too cold.. I'll see her every now and then.. When she comes by to eat for dinner as a family.. we never had a normal conversation it was always misdirected.. I’d end up talking with my brother or mom instead.. I have no grudge against my sister nor any hatred stored in my heart.. I've already forgave her in everything.. It pains me to see her just pass me by.. Like I'm nothing even less than a ghost.. It's been a long time that she learned to ignore me... to exist without a brother.. she'll just take anything she wanted.. with not a word.. we never stayed in one room for more than 15 mins or it was even less.. It's been so long that I've forgotten what's the cause of all of this nor how long did it start.. I just wish she'd call me again.. even if it's just by my name I’d be happy.. it just pains me to see us like this I know it was somehow my fault and I'm sorry with all my heart.. I just can't Live like this.. I'm sorry.. so sorry...I've tried my best to tell her that I'm sorry.. I know she knows It too.. There's nothing else that I can do but just sit still and pray untill the time I could hear her say kuya once again..